that i would be good

that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing
that I would be loved even when I numb myself

that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy
that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good whether with or without you

-Alanis Morissette

The truth

And I've collected all these thoughts
And I'm dying just to lose them
And if your words are true or not
I'll die trying to prove them
But I'll just have to accept
That my mind is so inept
And the only thing that's left
For me to do is to trust you

Convince me
Because I really need your help
Oh convince me
Because I can't see this for myself

I'll put the emphasis on the evidence
Begging for the proof
Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth

This is so unnerving
I know you've never lied to me before
But the things you're telling me
I can't yet believe
Yet can't ignore
But I'll just have to accept
That my mind is so inept
And the only thing that's left
For me is to trust you

Put the emphasis on the evidence
Begging for the proof
Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth

It's a world full of cynics
Who say to stay alive in it
You gotta stick with what you know
But the soul is always aching
For the heart to start taking
A chance by letting go

So let go
Let go
Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth
Attempt to place our lives into your hands
Confide in what you'll do
Cause sometimes when you're trying to sleep
And all your doubts and your faith don't agree its cause
Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth

-Relient k

love101

It almost seems like i am pursuing sociology majoring in boy/girl relationships degree in Uni. Probably a double degree in 'feminism' as well. ;) Too much hanging out with jshi (*wink*)& focus ppl. (not a bad thing, infact we manage to come up with a few pretty interesting theories)

I won't go through every theory but J.shi came up with something i find worth pondering.

1) Girls always fall for 'jerks'.

Not jerks as in JERKS but more like imperfect guys, the one who doesnt meet every criterias in her checklists.

eg:"I will never date someone who is not a gentleman."

"A guy who swears is a big turn off"

"I will never be with a guy who throw tantrums"

"I will never be with someone who doesnt remember important dates"

"I hate rude guys"

"He is such a slacker, no way I'll ever fall for him"

...and yet she breaks all rules.

Why?

because during the period of loving a 'jerk' , you develop patience, so so much of them.. because it is not self-seeking to love someone who doesnt meet your wants/requirements/checklist and so you tend to love unselfishly. You learn to not boast, and because he is such a 'jerk' , you then develop perseverence altogether.

Wow, sounding so much like the true definition of Love.

Indeed.

The ultimate love is very hard to achieve.

because if the perfect guy ever exists, you'd probably not develop all the above mentioned.

In conclusion, girls always fall for 'jerks', and just don't mind going through so much and putting up with all the crap.

Because only through that can LOVE exist.



So yeah. Who's to say loving a 'jerk' is a bad thing?

Long walk home

Finding myself in a place i've never been
where i don't know myself or anyone else
I can dream about the past or i can just let it go
I lost track of time five days ago
What is it about you that makes me want to stay
Is it all the love or is it just the pain

Don't leave me now we've come too far
just to set our eyes on a new star
i'll ride on clouds til you come down
just promise me you'll always leave the ground

In the drivers seat is my self-esteem
where i know that the heart should be
I'm cleaning off these shelves to show you how i've changed
and if all goes well tonight we'll call for rain
i'm moving pass the past at the slowest of speeds
hoping that our love exceeds our insecurities

finding myself finding myself
finding myself finding myself
finding myself find yourself

I'm running in circles
It's you i'm thinking of
and if you don't want to talk then this isn't love
A new destination i'll say my goodbyes
with my back turned to you
At least i know we tried.

-This day & age

candy cane

The candy cane is in the shape of a shepherd's staff. Jesus is our Shepherd and we are His flock. (John 10:11) Upside down, the candy cane is the shape of a "J", the first letter of Jesus name. (Luke 1:31) The wide red stripe represents the blood He shed on the cross for each one of us, so that we can have eternal life through Him. (Luke 22:20) The white stripe represents the sinlesness and purity of our Lord. (1 Peter 2:22)

The narrow red stripe represents that by His stripes or wounds, we are healed. (1 Peter 2:4) The flavouring in the candy cane is peppermint which is similar to hyssop. Hyssop is of the mint family and was used in the Old Testament for purification and sacrifice. (John19:29)
When we break our candy cane it reminds us that Jesus body was broken for us. (1 Cor 11:24)

If we share our candy cane and give it to someone else in love because we want to, it represents the same love of Jesus because He is to be shared with one another in love.






hrmm... not just any candy ;)

lovin' it

ahh.. why do i have to bump into you.

Greetings...

i am blogging, in sydney.
i know.
how lame is that, when i should be out the whole day.
reason being: broke

met up with Elvin ( my long lost childhood friend i used to admire ), for the first time today after 12 years. And. AND. crashed at his place *shameless*
Neva used to be this daring.
And walked from the apartment out to meet jo, bobb,& flav.. myself. MYSELF=P
again, i am so growing up *giving leech a wide smile*

and found out bout this a coup of months ago that Elvin's gf is sin wee (from mgs) 's sister.
hah! small small world. She's nice. great hospitality. Even smaller, bumped into mandy from canberra who jz got here and gonna head to newie :D

nice weather today.. sunny. moderate temperature. Can't believe im wasting it here indoor, blogging.

said bye to bobb for the last time. hopefully will be able to catch you in singapore, otherwise.. till we meet again.

p/s: 'post-exam syndrome' is taking a toll on me.

helpless

Never in my life I felt I had to depend on You this much, until now.

too late.

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down,
but wait,

You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say that...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late.



I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turning blue, and you say...

"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

-One republic-Apologize-

bitter

no one bother/like discussing answers after exams with me because i am not good academically and it is simply non-beneficial.







but i didn't think you would be like them too.

JunShi

I thought I'd start with "you're a shinning star and you brighten the day", but somehow I figured, that's just too cliche'.



Nutrition & Dietetics is what you pursue, but skipping lunches & snacking out hard is of cuz, another issue ? :P



And did they not know you're NOT just all about food & books, but you could also do a few good moves ;)



Oh don't they ever deny, that beautiful eyes of yours, hidden behind that pair of glasses as they passes you by.



you sometimes put on a look so blur, but oh that just makes you such a dear.



you're intelligent, you're firm, you're beautiful. You're simply one unique chick.



Softness you may portray, like a timid mouse they say,
but dont be decieved dear friends, She'll never let you prey!



Your friends, you inspire. For the Lord, you are on fire. And that is what I really do admire!




So, Happy 21st my precious dear friend,

Indulge in some fun,

and have a blessed one!



:)

concealed

behind every smile, behind every laughter,

lies a broken heart.