Happy 21st, Shwu Tyng :)
....
..
.
...and thank you for the 14 years friendship.
i mean it @_@
really!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, September 27, 2007
ShoutOut
Happy 21st, Shwu Tyng :)
....
..
.
...and thank you for the 14 years friendship.
i mean it @_@
really!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
My happy ending.
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the sh*t that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
So much for my happy ending..
-Avril Lavigne's - My happy ending-
which reminds me..
..
Thursday, September 20, 2007
mooncake & lanterns VS bush dance & BBQ
Had a decent FOCUS gathering ytd.
one word: Awesome!
Venue was at Raymond Terrace. (Rolf's house)-I hope I spell that correctly
1/2 hour drive in Mich's car, with WenYa, ze and me being the passengers.
Arrived at about 7 or so.
Was an outdoor thing though.
We started off with some BBQ..
Apparently, you just make a hole in the middle of the bread and put an egg in the middle and taddaa!- ''spanish eyes''!
salads...
Paul & Dene did their 'thing'. Pretty impressive though.
Dene & his lill Eliott & his puppy..
J.shi & shy Elliot.
I PROMISE I was gonna capture a picture of this nice lantern when all of a sudden it fell off the branch and burnt. -_-''
Good music. great company. genuine conversations. invaluable quality time.
When was the last time I truly let my hair down.
*exhale..*
It's been a while..
one word: Awesome!
Venue was at Raymond Terrace. (Rolf's house)-I hope I spell that correctly
1/2 hour drive in Mich's car, with WenYa, ze and me being the passengers.
Arrived at about 7 or so.
Was an outdoor thing though.
We started off with some BBQ..
BBQ pitt .(reminds me of home.. sobs*)
(not very fond of the current camera though,doesnt produce as good pictures as my previous one)
chicken,beef/lamb i dunno,something liver,sausages,spanish eyes.
Apparently, you just make a hole in the middle of the bread and put an egg in the middle and taddaa!- ''spanish eyes''!
Don't ask me why. no one knows why. Dave asked why not chinese eyes, cuz it's yellow in colour wad?
-__-''
Well I think he should just make french toast. Because when he make a hole in the middle of the bread,he throws tht piece away and it is such a waste!
salads...
Paul & Dene did their 'thing'. Pretty impressive though.
I'm sure there are more pics . but not in my camera. Didn't really have the time to *snap snap* cuz I was too bz being 'spontaneous' .aherm
Dene & his lill Eliott & his puppy..
J.shi & shy Elliot.
Mostly, catching up with ppl.
Talk talk talk. Eat eat eat
(will try to get more pics)
Talk talk talk. Eat eat eat
(will try to get more pics)
Proceeded with mooncakes (all the way from Gosford by Dave) and Jess gave a brief myth about the existance of mooncake. hahah.
Had lanterns hanging all around the garden. Really pretty scene.
I PROMISE I was gonna capture a picture of this nice lantern when all of a sudden it fell off the branch and burnt. -_-''
"Everyone,! Eat your mooncake and gaze at the moon while you're at it" - (Jess, 2007)
I find that pretty hillarious!
I find that pretty hillarious!
but we all did as told, anyway.
caught in the act. very spontaneous. I like ;)
That's wenYa and Ze.
That's wenYa and Ze.
An attempt to capture the moon. failed.
ahhh.. Classic.
me still looking fat in pics. will consider posting up my pics when i think i've lost some weight heh ^-^
Jess & J.shi read out some riddle to us. And as usual I was too slow to even understand the riddle, what more thinking of an answer. [no presents for me :( ]
Best things always comes at the end.
Had the grand bush dance. (A very typical aussie tradition, or maybe it's just newie?)
Joyce taught us the steps. Far out.
We got exhausted by the end of it.
And that's not just it. Matt suggested "The Hookie pookie" immediately after the dance.
Now THIS is the crazy fun part.
The circle was HUGE.
Was completely worn-out by the end of the day.
Best things always comes at the end.
Had the grand bush dance. (A very typical aussie tradition, or maybe it's just newie?)
Joyce taught us the steps. Far out.
We got exhausted by the end of it.
And that's not just it. Matt suggested "The Hookie pookie" immediately after the dance.
Now THIS is the crazy fun part.
The circle was HUGE.
Was completely worn-out by the end of the day.
. .
Good music. great company. genuine conversations. invaluable quality time.
When was the last time I truly let my hair down.
*exhale..*
It's been a while..
God = Love
Did a one-on-one bible reading with J.shi today,our usual on wednesdays.
We proceeded with 1 John 4:7. "God's love and ours"
We were going through the passage and this verse struck me, again.
"We love because He first loved us" 1John4:19.
And it reminds me of my first few encounters with God.
Oh yea, this is one of the first few basics of christianity and some of you would have known this verse by heart.
But this verse serves as one of my most prominent life altering moment.
I grew up with the understanding that love exist. And by nature, i do love as well.
And all these while, especially for those who know me really well, know that I love with all my heart, and I give up my all, just for love. Having to go through every single thing regardless of what I had to sacrifice, I would. And all for the sake of love.
Untill at one point I started questioning, Why was I the only one who is able to love 100% and give in 101% when it comes to this person I love, and often I ended up in frustrations. I thought all these while, I was the only one who is able to love that much. And I even thought of how much I've done just for love and NO ONE can love this much. All these eventually led to pride.
I became so self-righteous in love.
"We love because He first loved us" 1 John 4:19
And it really struck me hard. What was I even thinking? How was I even able to love if it weren't for Him. What love was I even talking about. Where did it even come from?
Let's look at how the bible describe Love :
"Love is patient,love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
love never fails."
1 Corinthians 13:4.
Love does not boast. But I fail that one.
Love is not proud. I fail that too.
Love is not self-seeking. Where I have been.
Love is not easily angered. Countless times where love was never returned.
Love does not envy. And I envy just as much.
Love always trusts. This, I fail half the time.
Love never fails. .. ......
I fail to love. I did.
I can never live up to this expectation. The true definition of love.
After all these years of being so righteous bout love.
First of all, I was abled by Him to Love and without Him I am nothing. and I will not even be given the privilege to know what Love is like. But there I was, talking and preaching about Love, just as the world did. About how much effort I have been putting in and the sacrifices I have made when it comes to love and how much I understood love.
oh how little did i know.
It is not I who s sacrificed, it is not I who s loved so much. I never did. I never could have. Because I am imperfect.
It is He who loved so much. It is He who gave His only Son. It is Jesus who has sacrificed. It is He who is able to give His love 100%. He is God and God is love. The true definition of Love.
I was blind. But now I see. It is just so overwhelming and comforting to know that there is a perfect Love although we are living in a broken world. Relationships don't lasts and love often fail us and all these because of sin. But be still and know that there is a God who offers love, a love so perfect and everlasting.
It is through Jesus now that I am able to love.
And I can never thank Him enough for this :)
We proceeded with 1 John 4:7. "God's love and ours"
We were going through the passage and this verse struck me, again.
"We love because He first loved us" 1John4:19.
And it reminds me of my first few encounters with God.
Oh yea, this is one of the first few basics of christianity and some of you would have known this verse by heart.
But this verse serves as one of my most prominent life altering moment.
I grew up with the understanding that love exist. And by nature, i do love as well.
And all these while, especially for those who know me really well, know that I love with all my heart, and I give up my all, just for love. Having to go through every single thing regardless of what I had to sacrifice, I would. And all for the sake of love.
Untill at one point I started questioning, Why was I the only one who is able to love 100% and give in 101% when it comes to this person I love, and often I ended up in frustrations. I thought all these while, I was the only one who is able to love that much. And I even thought of how much I've done just for love and NO ONE can love this much. All these eventually led to pride.
I became so self-righteous in love.
"We love because He first loved us" 1 John 4:19
And it really struck me hard. What was I even thinking? How was I even able to love if it weren't for Him. What love was I even talking about. Where did it even come from?
Let's look at how the bible describe Love :
"Love is patient,love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
love never fails."
1 Corinthians 13:4.
Love does not boast. But I fail that one.
Love is not proud. I fail that too.
Love is not self-seeking. Where I have been.
Love is not easily angered. Countless times where love was never returned.
Love does not envy. And I envy just as much.
Love always trusts. This, I fail half the time.
Love never fails. .. ......
I fail to love. I did.
I can never live up to this expectation. The true definition of love.
After all these years of being so righteous bout love.
First of all, I was abled by Him to Love and without Him I am nothing. and I will not even be given the privilege to know what Love is like. But there I was, talking and preaching about Love, just as the world did. About how much effort I have been putting in and the sacrifices I have made when it comes to love and how much I understood love.
oh how little did i know.
It is not I who s sacrificed, it is not I who s loved so much. I never did. I never could have. Because I am imperfect.
It is He who loved so much. It is He who gave His only Son. It is Jesus who has sacrificed. It is He who is able to give His love 100%. He is God and God is love. The true definition of Love.
I was blind. But now I see. It is just so overwhelming and comforting to know that there is a perfect Love although we are living in a broken world. Relationships don't lasts and love often fail us and all these because of sin. But be still and know that there is a God who offers love, a love so perfect and everlasting.
It is through Jesus now that I am able to love.
And I can never thank Him enough for this :)
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
M. I. C. K. E. Y. .. M. O .U .S. E lalalaaa..
YES.
except that his name is not mickey.
i present you..
.
.
.
.
.
Pinkeyyyyy.!. (eh,i suka-lah...)
my subject for today :)
This is not the 'before' picture.
Ok, the story begin like this, we were suppose to dissect a mouse and i was getting all excited~ and when the demonstrator showed us how to go about it, and i thought that's it, i am not doin this. It's too cruel.
Fortunately, we don't have to kill the mice. The mice has been killed,for us -__-''
My partner sp, was late,and I ended up having to do the 'surgery' alone. fuyohhh. *feeling like a surgeon*
Since we are not allowed to hold on to anything that will be go out of the lab, ie handphones, (to avoid contamination) I did it anyway :D
But see, i changed my gloves a couple of times all for the sake of the pictures and since i was sitting at the back row,Alone.as usual.*sobsob *.. NO ONE COULD SEE ME.
AND I secretly took out my hp . he he he.
This is messy. I didn't have the opportunity to take the 'before' picture, because this lab assistant, (chinese malaysian girl) was so afraid that I'll freak out alone with the mouse and she kept looking at me handling the mouse, and telling me what to do.which was quite helpful,quite.
We had to cut off the two limbs, and then try to remove the muscles and tissues as clean as possible so that we will be left with the bones. (yeah, we are suppose to extract the bone marrow)
and this is supposingly the 'after' picture. When the two limbs are cut off.
and this is the bone. after all the hard work.
(It tends to be less scary when it becomes a job)
And i dont have the picture when i was flushing out the bone marrow. BecauseTheGirlWasWatchingMe,again. So basically, the bone marrow is in the bone duhh and we had to inject some media solution into the bone cavity with a syringe and then flush the bone marrow out, until the bone look transparent.
muscle tissues everywhere... eeeeEEEeeeeee
The fur is so soft ... i actually further skinned the mouse and i wanted to bring this home but got scolded by some of them :(
Haemocytometer.
This. was after everything. Had to do cell counting under the microscope.
Had to post this up, cuz I injected the sample under the glass. what a perfect square ^-^'' ahhh...
(for those who don't quite understand, that's fine. Just feel the joy and satisfaction with me
^-^)
And after the whole satisfaction thing and all..
No, i haven't changed my mind. I am still NOT for lab work after degree.
Started at 2pm and finished at 5.30pm. -__-
Not good.
Proceeded to AIC after that, (wanted to be a hero,again) thinking i could continue with my next assignment.
And those killers. i never bought them. (I'm broke, remember?) STILL, someone has to distribute them. !!!joyce!!!!
ahh..I can never run away from them. Now you see where the source of my fats .
and No, I'm not at Uni. I left.
I'm blogging at home, i needed to do something 'non-academic' :)
except that his name is not mickey.
i present you..
.
.
.
.
.
Pinkeyyyyy.!. (eh,i suka-lah...)
my subject for today :)
This is not the 'before' picture.
Ok, the story begin like this, we were suppose to dissect a mouse and i was getting all excited~ and when the demonstrator showed us how to go about it, and i thought that's it, i am not doin this. It's too cruel.
Fortunately, we don't have to kill the mice. The mice has been killed,for us -__-''
My partner sp, was late,and I ended up having to do the 'surgery' alone. fuyohhh. *feeling like a surgeon*
Since we are not allowed to hold on to anything that will be go out of the lab, ie handphones, (to avoid contamination) I did it anyway :D
But see, i changed my gloves a couple of times all for the sake of the pictures and since i was sitting at the back row,Alone.as usual.*sobsob *.. NO ONE COULD SEE ME.
AND I secretly took out my hp . he he he.
This is messy. I didn't have the opportunity to take the 'before' picture, because this lab assistant, (chinese malaysian girl) was so afraid that I'll freak out alone with the mouse and she kept looking at me handling the mouse, and telling me what to do.which was quite helpful,quite.
We had to cut off the two limbs, and then try to remove the muscles and tissues as clean as possible so that we will be left with the bones. (yeah, we are suppose to extract the bone marrow)
and this is supposingly the 'after' picture. When the two limbs are cut off.
and this is the bone. after all the hard work.
(It tends to be less scary when it becomes a job)
And i dont have the picture when i was flushing out the bone marrow. BecauseTheGirlWasWatchingMe,again. So basically, the bone marrow is in the bone duhh and we had to inject some media solution into the bone cavity with a syringe and then flush the bone marrow out, until the bone look transparent.
muscle tissues everywhere... eeeeEEEeeeeee
The fur is so soft ... i actually further skinned the mouse and i wanted to bring this home but got scolded by some of them :(
Haemocytometer.
This. was after everything. Had to do cell counting under the microscope.
Had to post this up, cuz I injected the sample under the glass. what a perfect square ^-^'' ahhh...
(for those who don't quite understand, that's fine. Just feel the joy and satisfaction with me
^-^)
And after the whole satisfaction thing and all..
No, i haven't changed my mind. I am still NOT for lab work after degree.
Started at 2pm and finished at 5.30pm. -__-
Not good.
Proceeded to AIC after that, (wanted to be a hero,again) thinking i could continue with my next assignment.
And those killers. i never bought them. (I'm broke, remember?) STILL, someone has to distribute them. !!!joyce!!!!
ahh..I can never run away from them. Now you see where the source of my fats .
and No, I'm not at Uni. I left.
I'm blogging at home, i needed to do something 'non-academic' :)
Monday, September 17, 2007
......
Dear God,
Help me to be still, yet not quiet.
to be firm, yet not harsh.
to be gentle, yet not soft.
to be understanding, yet not compromising.
to be confident, yet not proud.
to be honest, yet not offensive.
to be principled, yet not judgmental.
God, change me.
Help me to be still, yet not quiet.
to be firm, yet not harsh.
to be gentle, yet not soft.
to be understanding, yet not compromising.
to be confident, yet not proud.
to be honest, yet not offensive.
to be principled, yet not judgmental.
God, change me.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Friday, September 14, 2007
Thank you!!!=D
Just got my parcel today!!!
look what i've got to accompany spring!!!!!!!!
weeehee.
very fantasy-like. I like it.
saddistic. i know. haha. but check out that freaked -out carrot!.so kute!
saddistic. i know. haha. but check out that freaked -out carrot!.so kute!
My personal fav ;)
Those are t shirts from threadless, anyway
(Courtesy of cheryl g =P )
And, my belated gift. just in time for summer! ;) Thank you ryl. mwwahhhhHH!
oO la la...
eating left over sushi s made by ze while posting up these. so, might as well. -_-
still hungry.
-__-"
Thursday, September 13, 2007
and i found you =)
Got my hair trimmed!
and got conned into buying 2 products, one shampoo and conditioner (because she said I'll get a free treatment cream, buy 2 free 1)
ok,shut up.
and then ..since i was in jezzo already, might as well just do some window shopping!
..was strolling ...
..
and for the first time i believe in love at first sight!
check her out. ;)
and we hooked up
who says jezzo's an uncool place to hang out. =P
you neva know.
and got conned into buying 2 products, one shampoo and conditioner (because she said I'll get a free treatment cream, buy 2 free 1)
ok,shut up.
and then ..since i was in jezzo already, might as well just do some window shopping!
..was strolling ...
..
and for the first time i believe in love at first sight!
check her out. ;)
and we hooked up
who says jezzo's an uncool place to hang out. =P
you neva know.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
Saturday, September 08, 2007
melting moments.
I was at FOCUS talking with fellow brothers and sisters when all of a sudden, Elliot, (Dene's 2 year old i think, son) came up to me and asked. "Are you happy today?"
I was caught off guard. And i didn't know why he asked me that, but i just said "yeah, i am happy.. why?"..
**gasps**
Then i remembered.
Last week, i remembered talking to little Elliot and i told him i was unhappy and he gave me his toy. And today, he actually remembered and he asked me again, out of concern!
omygoodness.
he is the sweetest little kid you've ever seen.
I gave him a hugeee hug... and i really almost, teared.
And you know what makes my heart sink..
The fact that even a little boy remembers and he is so sensitive bout feelings, when you'll be suprise how some grown up (friends, im talking bout in particular) dont even give one crap bout u.
i quote j.shi '' who needs a bf when a little boy itself can make your heart melt and go awwww.... !?''
Infact they do it better.
I was caught off guard. And i didn't know why he asked me that, but i just said "yeah, i am happy.. why?"..
**gasps**
Then i remembered.
Last week, i remembered talking to little Elliot and i told him i was unhappy and he gave me his toy. And today, he actually remembered and he asked me again, out of concern!
omygoodness.
he is the sweetest little kid you've ever seen.
I gave him a hugeee hug... and i really almost, teared.
And you know what makes my heart sink..
The fact that even a little boy remembers and he is so sensitive bout feelings, when you'll be suprise how some grown up (friends, im talking bout in particular) dont even give one crap bout u.
i quote j.shi '' who needs a bf when a little boy itself can make your heart melt and go awwww.... !?''
Infact they do it better.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
trigger 1
"Nobody's perfect"
You hear that everywhere.
And without a doubt you know that's true.
But have you ever thought why is that so?
You hear that everywhere.
And without a doubt you know that's true.
But have you ever thought why is that so?
Sunday, September 02, 2007
monotonous.
It's been a long time since I last hit the gym.
until Thursday's body combat.
Then i realised how slacked I've been.
Cuz I'm still so sore. -_-''
but its been 3 days -__-
I'm aging.
It must be it.
Been in AIC (24Hrs com lab) the whole day, trying to get to know my viruses better.
pretending I am very much into them, and ..decided that I want to spend a bit more time, this time.
Nonono, I mean, I am. I really am interested... sometimes. u know? but, maybe just not today.
I know.
my life's pretty mundane.
nothing much, except that..
I'm another day older? 0_o
until Thursday's body combat.
Then i realised how slacked I've been.
Cuz I'm still so sore. -_-''
but its been 3 days -__-
I'm aging.
It must be it.
Been in AIC (24Hrs com lab) the whole day, trying to get to know my viruses better.
pretending I am very much into them, and ..decided that I want to spend a bit more time, this time.
Nonono, I mean, I am. I really am interested... sometimes. u know? but, maybe just not today.
I know.
my life's pretty mundane.
nothing much, except that..
I'm another day older? 0_o
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